Chaos... again

Today I've been told: "You thrive on chaos!" - didn't I already know that?

Regrets

"Regrets, I've had a few; but then again, too few to mention..." - My Way, performed by Frank Sinatra

I want to talk about regrets...

Should one regret more the things that he did or the things that he didn't do?
Here in Portugal people normally say that it is better to feel regret of something you did than to feel regret of something you didn't do! And usually you get to hear this when you're complaining about something you think you should've done and you didn't!

"Regret for the things we did is something that can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable." - Sidney J. Harris
Well... it looks like it is not only in Portugal! :P

Now... is it really like this?
The truth is, when you don't do something and regret it, you ask yourself: "What if ...? What if ...? What if ...?"
But that can also happen when you do something and regret it: "What if I didn't ...?" And the following reaction should be: "At least I tried..."
And this is what makes all the difference... "At least I tried..."

There's no "right way" to deal with this issue! The truth is that you'll never know if you don't try... Though sometimes you don't need to try to know that you won't get it!
Use with caution!

James Earl Jones a.k.a. Darth Vader

Yesterday I got to thinking about James Earl Jones, after writing the post on the Lion King. The truth is that I think that any sentence that is said with James Earl Jones' dark and strong voice is great. Just remember Lord Vader (a.k.a. Darth Vader) from Star Wars - any sentence that he said was simply amazing!

Darth Vader sentences - some examples (just don't forget to add the deep breathing...):
- "No, I am your father!" (talking to Luke Skywalker...)
- "The Force is with you young Skywalker... But you are not a Jedi yet!" (as he faces Luke Skywalker on a duel for the first time...)
- "I find your lack of faith disturbing..." (not sure when this one is...)
- "If you only new the power of the dark side...!" (again, talking to Luke Skywalker)
- "Impressive, most impressive" (and once again, while fighting Luke)
- "Indeed you are powerful, as the Emperor has foreseen" (again with Luke)
- "What is thy bidding, my master?" (talking to the Emperor)

Any film with James Earl Jones is worth watching, even if just to hear his voice!

The Lion King

Mufasa (King - voice from the great James Earl Jones!) to little Simba:

"Everything the light touches is our kingdom!"

Isn't it nice? ...

I thrive on chaos

Why is it that I only thrive on chaos? Why is it that I need pressure to work? Why is it that it has always been like this? Is it just me, or does this happen to everyone else?

I hate to be put under pressure! I hate chaos! And specially I hate that I only work like this!

Why can't I be productive without the pressure and the chaos?

The truth is that it comes from the start... At school I used to study only when under pressure, which means - THE DAY BEFORE THE EXAM/TEST!
I must say that I used to be a good student, I always did my homework when arriving from school... but study? NOOOOOO!!! I did try to do it... but I was never able to study something if not pressured to do it.

But now things are a little more serious... I have work to do!!! I have to have something to present! I have to show some work done! But the truth is that I only feel productive when under pressure or even worse... ON CHAOS!!! Still... I HATE IT!!!!

Man... I really must do something about this!

Is there anybody out there that can help me???

Good luck to me...

It Starts!!!

Creating a blog is not an easy process! Mainly because you have to decide what to name it! It's as tough a decision as when you have to name your baby (not that I've already done it, but
still...)!

That's how it starts! And my process was definitely not easy...

I wanted a name that would say something about me, but also that would give me enough space to write whatever I felt like writing...

I'll give you some examples of names that occurred to me:

"Whatever you say I am, that's what I'm not" - inspired by the Arctic Monkeys. I liked it a lot, but still, I would feel like going against virtually everybody, and that didn't please me...

"The grass is always greener on the other side..." - inspired on a well known saying and a song by Travis. I also liked it, but then I would be saying that I'm never happy with anything... and that's not true! Let's try something else...

"This is what I've learned so far..." - inspired by the lyrics of a Sarah Bettens song called "Grey". I would feel like a teacher or someone really old talking about past experiences... Not what I was looking for...

"This is my truth, tell me yours" - inspired by the Manic Street Preachers. Also like it, but would be sort of asking for feedback... Not yet, not yet...

"Mad World" - Inspired by a Gary Jules' song, from the OST of Donnie Darko. Lots of good reasons to use this one! But I didn't feel like this was the one... but still, definitely in the Top3!

"Why does it always rain on me?" - again inspired by Travis (and I don't like them all that much...)! Too pessimistic...

"Know thyself" - inspired in the ancient greek. Liked it... but sounded too old... :P

"Present is just the future turning into the past" - don't know where this one came from... Didn't feel like it said anything about me!

And then I thought...
"Where is my mind?" - inspired in a song by Pixies (or in any other version, like the Placebo one, pretty good...). I felt this was the one. So many times I feel out of my mind, out there, somewhere... and I truly ask myself... WHERE IS MY MIND? Well, this says a lot about me, and it also allows me to write anything... whatever comes to my mind! :P JUST PERFECT! ;)

This is the beginning...